It feels like the first time in a while that we’ve been connected…

I feel like you’re an old friend I haven’t talked to in years.

Maybe it’s one sided, but I hope you feel something too – because even though we may have not connected before… or maybe we did… I really do feel a strong sensation of deep sisterhood moving through my veins as I write this.

And I hope you feel it too.

If you’ve ever felt like you know me… (I don’t say that from weirdness, just from a place of actually hearing that a lot from people) I honestly feel the same way sometimes with you and this community. Crazy.. I know.

But also.. if you haven’t felt that and you just landed here, that’s totally fine too.

I don’t take it personally. I hope we do get to know each other. Maybe we even will in this email 😉 who knows.

If you’ve been with me for a while, you know that my mission has taken so many evolutions over the years.

Business Coach, Mentor, Healer, Ayahuasca Facilitator, Sound Journey Artist, Content Creator… baby blogger. yep. all of it.

Well, if you asked me who I am today, the only thing I could think to say is to share this story….

(listen up, it’s worth it I promise.)

It happened a year ago when I was facilitating Ayahuasca with my teacher. In our integration circle (where we talk after ceremony about what everyone felt and experienced) a woman in the room, in a tone I couldn’t quite identify, asked me a question…

“Why don’t you call yourself a healer Lauren? That is what you are. Isn’t it?”

Now… while you may roll your eyes at this and think I’m about to tell you that this was the moment the light bulb FINALLY went off and my world changed…

like… “Omg Lauren!! You finally REALIZED! (gag.)” – you’re wrong.

In that moment … truly… if I’m honest, I didn’t feel a resonance of yes. I felt a rejection of the thought entirely. I wasn’t proud… I wasn’t impressed with myself. Not cocky like.. “yes duh, of course you think that.” It was a complete and total NO WAY in my nervous system.

I shrunk down.

Responding quickly to change the topic, I said to her with such an energy of humility that felt border-lined ashamed…

“That’s beautiful you think that. But I don’t like to label myself. I guess whatever you see as my ‘label’ is just your own identity reflected back to you.”

(yes… I did the air quotes. Yes it was cringe.)

The end.

I totally deflected it and moved on.

But it’s funny…

That question didn’t go away.

In fact, over the past two months I’ve been circling back to that question…

Over… and over… and over again, and I realized something deep about myself.

Tomorrow I’m going to share it all – a deep epiphany I had about identity, and finding our way in the world… would love for you to hear.

Can’t wait to talk to you tomorrow sister.

ps  I wrote a post about this – about remembering who we really are underneath all the labels and identities, with a special invitation for you…

I hope you like it.

Deep breath Lauren. 

This one’s big.

HERE’S THE POST 

And regardless of whether you comment on it or not… I hope this one FEELS like it’s for you too.

It will find the right people I know. It always does.

Let me know if this message resonates.

xox,

Lauren Eliz Love