Here’s my full circle moment from the past two days..
Tell me if you can relate to this.. Over the past year I have taken so many twists, turns, and evolutions of myself… It’s been like 9 cats and their nine lives have all existed simultaneously inside my being over the past 12 months.
I feel like I have lived 81 lifetimes in one year. And you probably feel that way too.
Over the last 2 months I’ve been in a cocoon – reshaping myself and grounding back in after a FIVE YEAR period of sitting with Ayahuasca every 4 months or less.
Yes… you heard that right. FIVE YEARS. Every four months or less.
It’s time to slow down and INTEGRATE…. so… OF COURSE now all the patterns are coming up on a DEEPLY CELLULAR level.
So now picture me in my bathrobe with my hair in a nest on my head, in a completely ungrounded state feeding chipmunks… I’ve been loving it.
I’m feeding the chipmunks every morning to start the day off right (or at least trying to.)
Watching the blue jays fight over the squirrels’ nut stash for winter in the afternoon, & hearing all about it from the squirrels.
Watching Mindhunter with my husband till bed time (followed by Modern Family of course.)
I’m doing my best to bring myself into slowness… to find spirit to bring the answers when it’s time.
WHO. AM. I.
Online, I didn’t know how to hold it all for these last 60 days. What to say or how to say it.
And it was fucking beautiful.
Because it brought me here:
Wild.
Weird.
And ALIVE.
With deeper knowings of these answers:
“What do I want to express?”
“What do I desire to say?”
“What am I really trying to stand for?”
“What matters most in my life?”
“What do I actually want?”
Who the actual fuck AM I… REALLY.
And what do I want to EXPRESS.
If you relate to the readiness I feel in my bones to find the answers… I guess it’s a sign we are all evolving right now, finding a deeper inner compass of own own truth.
And you know what i say to that….!!???
Bring it the Fuck on baby. LETS GO.
I’m SO ready for this.
… maybe it’s about damn time we find what we really want to say in this world.
Speak our truth.
Be our fullest selves.
Claim the life of our dreams.
Find out who we TRULY are. Without all the masks.
It’s been so fun talking to you like this over the past few days girl, get ready for more vulnerable shares from the heart in your inbox each week.
PS – If you’ve been asking yourself some of the same questions I’ve asked myself lately – I go even deeper and spill alllll the beans in my latest podcast episode.
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xox,
Lauren
